Sunday, September 11, 2011 @ 7:06 AM
Disclaimer: Major fangirl post! Do not read if it irritates you or makes your hair stand on end. You have been warned (:SHINee World Singapore 2011. I died/melted/hyperventilated/fainted/screamed 100000000 times over the course of three hours on Saturday night. Didn't manage to take many pictures this time because the security personnel were really strict and swopped down on us the moment we whipped out our cameras ): But i managed to sneak a few before the concert actually began and i was too immersed in singing along and jumping up and down to bother taking pictures anyway. They will be posted at this end of this entry. I'm sorry but i just need to give a blow-by-blow account of last night's events. So you still have a chance to back out. Now, before it's too late. Sure you want to continue? Alright. Met YJ at freaking 10am at Kallang Leisure Park so we could get some work done before the concert. Met Hafiz and his friend Aneza at about 2pm to queue for merchandise. It was a total epic fail and a disappointment because a) They had nothing else left except the official lightsticks and b) We got conned into posing for the M.Net TV Crew. Needless to say, me, YJ and Aneza all ducked behind Hafiz. For once my height (or lack thereof) was put to good use! So we each bought a lightstick in the end, and went to slack/rant/chat along the Kallang River. Walked till we were tired, then went back to KLP to sit down and chat somemore. Met Jing Hui to collect our tickets and merchandise, and it was only when we reached the Indoor Stadium when all the fun started. So we parted with Hafiz and Aneza, and headed towards the North Entrance where our seats were.To be honest, i'm not a fan of loud noises, especially the booming ones that i still couldn't get accustomed to even after Super Show 3, so i was pretty restless and irritated during the first few songs. Somehow booming music made me anxious for my hearing. But as the concert progressed, the excitement started to build up, especially for me and YJ. Our initial reluctance to cheer was fuelled by the fact that the people in our section were all so tame and quiet, but after the 3rd or 4th song this conversation took place...Me: *after being the only person screaming for Onew* OMG SO EMBARRASSING!!!YJ: DON'T CARE DON'T CARE! SCREAM! SCREAMMMMM!I don't think i need to say what happened next. Hahaha. So SHINee was performing one of their songs (Heck i can't even remember what song it is already), and i think it was towards the end of the concert. Onew finally came to the stage nearest to our section, and naturally YJ and I stood up, screamed and jumped up and down. Not to get his attention on purpose, mind you. We just did that because we were just so high and excited. BUT. Next thing we knew, he suddenly pointed right in our direction and smiled at us! My next reaction was to look around, and realise that everybody around us was sitting down (and looking at us as though we were aliens), and i thought "Hey we're the only ones standing up!". Immediately me and YJ turned to each other and screamed in unison "OMGEEEEEE HE SMILED AT US!". It must have been amusing for him because he smiled at us (AGAIN, OMG) and laughed. I was ready to melt into a puddle of goo and die. Anyway, being the selfish people that we were, we decided to run down to the front of the terrace when they were bowing and greeting everybody at the end of the concert. We were just trying to pull out that one more smile from him, but he didn't smile at us again, though he did glance at us (but didn't smile,tsk). *cringe* I probably looked like a lunatic screaming away, with my eyes and nose red because i was crying during the concert from ummm excessive emotions :DMet Hafiz and Aneza outside the Stadium after the concert, and we were still screaming away. Ahem, nobody can recognise us anyway so who cares if we were totally embarrassing ourselves.Smiled to myself all the way home on the bus. I must be crazy. Sorry for the disjointed post, even reminiscing about it is exciting, so pardon me if i sound somewhat incoherent. Anyway, Literature Paper 1 is on tomorrow, and that marks the beginning of our Prelim 2. I know that i should probably be doing other things rather than typing out this post, but my head feels too saturated to squeeze in anymore stuff so i shall just leave it at that. I hope things turn out well this time round anyway; i did what i could over the one week holiday. Ending off this post with some of the photos of SWC in Singapore (: 
I can't recall what song they were performing, but the sea of turquoise lightsticks were just amazing! 
I think they were performing Lucifer here. As you can see, our seats were really really far away ):
(But Onew could still spot us from this distance omg!! Okay enough)
With my "frienemy"/Yan Jie/fellow Onew fan after the concert! I don't know how she can still smile like that, I was pretty much in a heightened state of euphoria and could hardly walk properly, hence the weird crooked smile.
Some of the stuff we got from the concert. I purchased TWO lightsticks (told you i'm crazy) and a fan. The banner was given out by fans before the concert for Key's birthday project. Didn't manage to get anything else since everything was snapped up after just an hour. That's it! Bye SWC, Hello Prelim 2!
Saturday, August 13, 2011 @ 7:44 AM
The thing i love the most about my room is the breeze that blows in through my window. Strangely enough, i initially had an irrational fear of the huge tree outside for reasons even i can't quite fathom myself. But now i love opening the windows to let the cool breeze in, especially early in the morning or late at night. It takes some of the pain away while i'm struggling with yet another essay or another truckload of content to memorise.
Everything that i've been working and striving for for the past 3 years will be determined solely by a single examination. It's not just any examination, it is THE examination. As i reflect on my experience in MI, i feel a tinge of sadness at how it's going to be over all so soon. Sure, the studying and endless lectures and tutorials were painful; but the great memories i had with this class takes the pain away. It pains me that very soon, we'll all be going our seperate ways to pursue the dreams that we each have, and all of the happy memories will just be exactly that ;distant memories. Why is it that good things never last long enough?
I remember someone telling me once that a person who holds on stubbornly to the past will never be able to succeed in life. This came from someone who was willing to give up anything in his life to get what he wants; and i respect him for that. I shall always keep this in mind. I don't think my experiences are rich enough yet to be passing a judgement on this, but i believe that my questions will be answered in time to come, and time will tell.
As i sit here night after night, going through essays, lecture notes and mindmaps, i constantly ask myself if i truly know what i want in life. Perhaps not yet. Results are still the bottomline, so that is what i'm going to have to work for first. Whatever it takes is what i'm going to do, despite the exhaustion, the pressure, the frustration, knowing that we're not alone in this is a great source of comfort. For the first time in my 19 years, i actually truly believe that i'm fighting this battle in the best condition possible, because we're all made for greater and better things.
At the end of the day, sometimes it really does boil right down to how badly we want something. Perhaps the A Levels are not really what it's all cracked up to be. Doing this in the best psychological and emotional state of mind is probably the deadliest weapon that we can have. And it is this very weapon which will ensure our success. It's not a lot of time, but let's make the remaining time that we have worthwhile (:
I think they were performing Lucifer here. As you can see, our seats were really really far away ): (But Onew could still spot us from this distance omg!! Okay enough)
