Thursday, May 27, 2010 @ 9:24 AM
It's quite sad to feel like you're shouldering the full extent of a blame that was not entirely your mistake. While i don't absolve myself of all responsibility, is it fair to question us as if we were the only people involved? And the rest are conveniently acting as if they have got nothing to do with it. I'm terribly disappointed. I think that i've been pretty nice, covering up other people's mistakes and nonsense for them if i feel that it's worthwhile. But no, from now on i will not be doing it anymore, since what i got was poor repayment for everything else that i did. Please don't put on an innocent facade, because i'm not blind and i can tell what else goes on. Just to clarify, being NEC president does not make me any less of a human being. Neither does it make me someone equivalent to a Higher Being. I make mistakes just like everybody else. While i may look like i don't have emotions more than 60% of the time, i am still human. Before all of you start conferring idealistic but unrealistic expectations on me, please remember that like OTHER HUMAN BEINGS, i also have a breaking point. What's the point of being called a President if i don't even have the moral courage to stand up for what i think is right? Am i just a figurehead, or a 'vase', as Cheryl puts it? Am i really expected to conform just to make others happy, rather than seek for new ways to improve situations?I can blatantly admit that i could have handled the situation a lot more appropriately, and that it was a little rash on my part. For that, i apologise and am willing to reflect and change that aspect of myself; perhaps i'm just too task-oriented for my own good. But i didn't harbour malicious intentions and i never will. It's time people stopped looking so much at their own personal well-being and spared a thought for my feelings. Guess what folks, i've got feelings too.
