Thursday, March 18, 2010 @ 7:12 AM
What March Holidays? This is self-explanatory. Life has been pretty much like a rollercoaster ride for me so far. The ups and the downs, the highs and lows; that all pretty much contributed to a slight sense of identity crisis for me. But it's okay, it's nothing i can't take (: Something just dawned on me last night (or make that this morning if you wish), as i was studying Geography and doing NEC proposals/agendas etc as usual. It was close to 3 am in the morning, and a thought crossed my (....sleeping....) mind. Right at that very moment, i knew that some of the rest of my friends were having fun outside. And i asked myself; What am i aiming to get out of pushing myself so hard? It feels almost perverse that i truly do get a sense of satisfication from testing my limits and seeing just how far i can stretch my abilities. I could very easily forsake my work and go out to have fun, but yet i've chosen to take the path less travelled; by continually challenging myself to do what nobody would want or dare to do. Despite my initial sense of loss and frustration, i'm glad that i'm finally beginning to see the light at the end of the tunnel. It feels good knowing that i am in full control of the direction in which my life is going; at least i know that i am at the helm of my ship and not letting someone else do the job of controlling my life. So, despite waking up every morning not exactly liking the person i see in the mirror(in terms of degenerating physical appearance due to lack of sleep), i do realise that i'm starting to fancy this more mature and rational Rou Urn that i haven't seen for some time. No doubt i've shed many tears, but i believe that with every tear i shed, i become stronger. Eventually i'll be able to reap the benefits of my hard work; that i'm certain of (: So that's enough of philosophical talk for now. Despite feeling pretty much ready to conk out, these March Holidays have been fruitful, except for today's Economics lesson, eck-hem. Haha. Had lunch with Cheryl and took the train down to town with her after that. It felt good talking to her, knowing that things are certainly looking up for her. I'm truly happy for you (: As for myself, i won't allow my emotions to get into the way of my actions anymore. From now on, i shall act according to what my head tells me to. Picnic at Marina Barrage tmr with the lot. It'll be a fruitful one, considering how detached i've been getting with many of my friends. I'll take it as an opportunity to rest and relax, as well as catch up with each other (: So that's pretty much as it is for me now (: Ending off with some pictures of NEC Family Day.....
This generated shrieks of 'Act cute!' from Ma Xin. Ironic that it was her who told me to pose in the first place....-.-
7th and 8th NEC bonding session @ Mount Faber.....
