Monday, May 31, 2010 @ 7:44 AM
I'm so overcome with disbelief that i'm actually have trouble typing out this post. For the first time in my life, i'm actually lost for words. Completely. You APPALL me. To think that i was actually nice enough to give you a second chance to redeem yourself in my eyes. I've always believed that no single person can be innately bad; it doesn't seem fair to judge a person based on a moment of folly. I've constantly tolerated your demeaning treatment of me for a good six months, all the while innocently believing that you will reform if given the chance to. BUT THIS IS THE LAST STRAW. I continued being friendly to you despite the whole lot of negativity surrounding you. Why? Because i felt for you. I pitied you. I believed that you could do better. I tried to protect your image with my personal dignity at stake. People around me were advising me against investing too much thought into your feelings. But i still did it. I WAS BLIND. BLINDED BY GOD KNOWS WHAT. These words were always buried somewhere in my head, but i never saw the need to use them until now. Perhaps i should have just said it sooner. Could have saved myself so much trouble which i didn't deserve. YOU DISGUST ME. YOU'RE ABSOLUTELY, UNBELIEVABLY INCORRIGIBLE. I can't stomach the fact that i still have to tolerate your prescence. But i still can act like you don't exist. I'm praying and hoping that my conscience won't get into the way again. I should really hate myself for being too soft-hearted. 'Of all things living, men are the worst'. Well, definitely not ALL. But SOME, for sure. And you're probably the worst of the sort whom i've had the misfortune to cross paths with.
